Life and death

Well I'm feeling like I have no way to go my life is at a stop right now it went from going to school part time to not at all seeing Kierra all the time to just the weekends it's killing me it's pulling me apart from the inside out I can't take this much longer I can't get a job cuz of Indiana low says that I have to be in school and have a workers permit to work even at 16, 17 I can't get one cuz I'm not in school it sucks there's nothing for me to do anymore all I got is Kierra she my life but I need more I just can't do it with out anything cuz I can't even see her one the week days cuz of her dad and now all I do is sit all day at my house doing nothing do u reailz how much that hurts me i can't to it with out money or anything to do at all and iv been smoke weed agin and it's not vary good people keep telling me but I think it's the only thing that's keeping me from doing anything crazy and keeping me from a stat of mayger depresson or an blow up that may make really bad things happin for me and I don't want that and that's why I'm still smoking it so that way I stay in a stable good mood all the time I always feel good on it and that's what matters and no on can tell me ather. If I could have 3 wishs I would wish for 1. Be abol to see Kierra when ever I want 2. Smoke weed when ever I want 3. Have a job not to fancy not to bad just a good paying job. Thows are my three wishs that's all I would ask fir right now in life.